So today (18th June) is Autistic Pride Day. I figured I'll scribble something and in a year come back to it and see if my viewpoints changed. I change opinions a lot, but at the core I do not feel like I am a different person than I was when I was 10 for example. …
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The trust fall. Meditation: Our Sacred Earth
I went to my first Osho meditation (Our Sacred Earth) few days ago, with a friend, and I feel like I do need to let a bit of this experience out. Perhaps it will motivate someone to try it out. We went to a group meditation hosted by a couple that is very experienced with …
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Narcissistic abuse: an afterword
Please enjoy this beautiful music. The topic came up recently when I renewed contact with one of my friends from years ago, and I went through the post I've made 2 years ago: I've been a best friend of a pathological narcissist. As my friend mentioned there is a lot of general information, but also …
Happy Belated Valentine’s Day!
I am late with the post, but who gives a shit. I just wanted to make a wish for anyone reading this, and anyone in general. We have all had some inadequate experiences in dating, so let me address this. I want all of you to find someone or already in someone, safety, happiness, the …
Just a difficult day
Everything was going so well for quite a while. Each time it gets worse it catches me by surprise. Every time I hope it's the last, but then it never is. I got used to being always tired, always sleepy, as if all my energy got sucked away. The pills make me functional just enough, …
For when you’re not doing okay
Progress is never linear, neither is health. We keep circulating around the homeostasis, balancing out with the medication and treatments, for a while we feel almost normal, but then the moment comes when you hit another low, and you never know when it will end. You lose yourself in the pain, in the anxiety, you …
Halloween 2020
Despite the lockdown and the pandemic, 2020 turned out to be the best year for me so far. So many good things have happened it is overwhelming, and I am genuinely happy. Halloween this year was supposed to be all stay at home and maybe watch 'Nightmare Before Christmas' or 'Corpse Bride' for the hundredth …
A journey from mind prison to mind palace
It's been a few challenging months. I am not even going to touch right now on what is happening on the political scene. Today's post is about positivity and healing, not 'things that will enrage me even more'. A month ago I started attending drawing classes. My doctors have advised me to finally go to …
I’ve been a best friend of a pathological Narcissist for seven years – here’s what I learned
This is the story I chose to left behind couple of years ago. I intended to never go back to it, as I felt I have paid more than enough time, mental energy and resources to it, and the best course for me would have been to just slam the door behind me, and move …
My favorites of 2019
The end of the year is coming. I thought it would be fun to make a summary of what were my favorite things this year. Some of them I knew for years, and some I discovered just recently. Book: The Rise of Lykos by William Theodore Savage (2018) I have waited so impatiently for this …
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